Always trying to be grateful...

Looking back on my life I see that I have been blessed. And it's this attitude that I need to always be in.

Lately I've been trying to be more grateful. Grateful that I have a job, grateful that I may get a transfer, grateful that things always seem to work out.

I've been worrying a lot about money, more than usual. I guess it's the economic times. I've also been busy cleaning. I've almost gotten it to the point where my mind is quiet and than begins to clean. Sometimes I get stuck in memories, or self pity, but most of the time, I'm remembering to clean.

Okay back to money. So I've been avoiding doing my tax return because I've been worried that I'd owe money. Well finally I did, and turns out I'll get a nice return. Found money right when I needed it.

But before I did my tax return, I let go. I let go of what my expectations were. Only when I am able to do this, do things happen. If you can't let go, you are stuck in memory and you need to clean on that.

Times are tough, only if you make them tough. Remember to clean and it's amazing what happens in your life.

I love you, I'm sorry!

Remembering to Look Back

Hi,

Sorry I haven't written in awhile, I've just been really busy on life's roller coaster.

Work is tense, we are going through lay-offs again. I am not concerned, I just clean and try to be at peace.

My life has been really blessed lately, and when I look back, that's when it really jumps out at me. You see I've been reading A Course in Miracles , and it has really been hitting home. It follows closely with ho'oponopono. Reading this has been my reminder to clean and come from love instead of anger.

Here is a summary on what's been happening in my life:

• Feb (most people I was hired with were laid-off), I was one of the lucky ones to still have my job.


• Mar (again people were laid off), again I remained. But I had a bunch of bosses who I did not get a long with.


• Apr - people just started disappearing. The bosses I didn't get a long with were transferred to different departments.


• May - I got a coworker with attitude, I cleaned on this, and I was able to forgive and show love. She is actually a very nice woman who has a lot of insecurities.


• June - the cheap place we were supposed to move into fell through. We were able to find a small house to rent in two days. Also more lay-offs are happening, but I was just offered a job in a different city.

So my point for this post is to look back on the last six months and realize that you've been extremely lucky. I've survived at least three different lay-offs with only a year in the company. It's easy for me to be negative and be upset by the fact that I may have to move again, but maybe this was God's purpose. Who am I to question that? So I continue to clean and try to remember to come from love.